Had a nice short dinner with Mingli.
I miss companion so much!
Of coz when it's time to meet her dear bf,I opted out.
Hee.
It just feel 'odd'.

Anyway...

I was surprised,dismayed when people I thought should know better asked me what's wrong with me.
Even if you cant tell,you are given access to my personal world.
Why...cant you tell?

Yet I am not angry.
Not right to.

Encouragements and supports are most welcome from people that didnt really know enough.
But I really seek for an understanding from those who know.

I can pretty much sieved through the cracks of one's soul.
I dont and wont probe.
No I wont.
I will leave it up to you to tell me.
Should you need just a helping hand or listening ear,I am always standing here.
Waiting for you.

But I am too,waiting for someone.
Who can read my soul and break the spells.

(Why cant you do that?)

I have been relying on my own for every strength I can draw on to pass the next hurdle.
Thank God so far.

I just feel I could need someone else who is like me.
I need an angel.

I frowned with pain each time I thought of 'angel'.
That dream of my angel leaving me is so sad.
Why must he leave me?
Dreams...I tell myself.
It is just a dream.And he looked too much like someone else to be my own angel.

I need someone.
He/She doesnt have to be my best friend,my soulmate.But again we always wish it icould be the latter.

I need someone to break my spell.
Free me from the cold chamber.

He/She does not take away what I am facing,or so my burdens.

But he/she is the best support that I could ever ask for.

I dont have to speak much,dont have to talk much.
But I would love and naturally talk like we have been the oldest friends.
And number of years is not the matter here.

And then...
I wish that He/She will never leave my side,despite the physical distance b/w us.

Am I asking for too much?
I hope not,coz I will too be the one that He/She needs.

I dun wanna give without receiving.
And too dun wanna receive without giving.
I want the feeling to be mutual.

Somehow...in this relationship,I am only the receiver.
Receiver of your support,love and care.
I always tried my best to be as dear.
I know you think I am.And most importantly,I hope you recognized the fact that I really am.
I've tried.




Just indulge in the present.

The future may be happy or not.
No matter what happens...Jason,I only want you to know that I always do my best in this relationship and I never lie to the times when I want you.

I miss the times when we begin.
It may be less painful as to compared to then,but ....




Là où êtes vous,mon Juillet prince?